It's not, but I figured if I outright asked how you actually were you'd just say you were fine because we're kind of the same that way. [just...pointing that out.]
...I'm not going to say you have to talk about it, but...if you want. Whenever. I guess.
[ THIS CALLOUT. this callout actually works better than literally anything else that anyone else has tried so far because taichi is right, they are really, really similar.
he like. huffs, a little, scrubs his face again. there's a pause. ]
.... I dunno. I think - do you think anything's different? I feel like... we came back so fucked up from the last trip, something maybe... [ ... ] I feel like I fucking hate myself, man. Like - I can't do anything good. Haven't been able to do anything good. And like... that I get too emotional, and it fucks other people up.
...I've been kind of feeling like that even before we left the first time. We keep solving cases, but at what cost, you know? Everything's so fucked up and it's like we were talking about last week. We keep running into a wall and we can't get our way around it. It's...it's not just you. This place is starting to drain on all of us, but I don't think you're fucking other people up by caring about things and people.
We're doing the best we can, but it definitely feels like we should be doing better. I'm right there with you.
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...I'm not going to say you have to talk about it, but...if you want. Whenever. I guess.
[an attempt was made!!!]
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he like. huffs, a little, scrubs his face again. there's a pause. ]
.... I dunno. I think - do you think anything's different? I feel like... we came back so fucked up from the last trip, something maybe... [ ... ] I feel like I fucking hate myself, man. Like - I can't do anything good. Haven't been able to do anything good. And like... that I get too emotional, and it fucks other people up.
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...I've been kind of feeling like that even before we left the first time. We keep solving cases, but at what cost, you know? Everything's so fucked up and it's like we were talking about last week. We keep running into a wall and we can't get our way around it. It's...it's not just you. This place is starting to drain on all of us, but I don't think you're fucking other people up by caring about things and people.
We're doing the best we can, but it definitely feels like we should be doing better. I'm right there with you.