I think...no matter what the circumstances, you're always going to be the last person to forgive yourself even after everybody else has. But at the same time, don't push people away because they're being kind about what happened.
...it's probably going to take a while to fix the pieces. I'm still trying to figure it out myself. But I guess...it's okay for people to know so they can help where they can.
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That you had to fight... or die?
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[you were busy its ok.]
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Yeah, I remember you telling me.
[ ill face myself plays in the bg wait wrong ty character ]
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[ it's just a little overwhelming, is all ]
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[even if it's not pushing people away, let people help you the only way they know they can.]
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[ and she doesn't want to disappoint them. ]
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I feel like I'm kind of.... cracked inside. I don't know.
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Like everything suddenly doesn't really fit right anymore?
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(I had a feeling you'd get it...)
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I don't have that much time left, so I'd rather focus on helping everyone else get through this.
I'd like... to let everyone help me out, too... I just don't know that there's really anything they can do.
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...you'd be surprised. Helping doesn't always have to be reassuring. Yamato used to punch me in the face any time I got too lost in my own head.