...yeah. Like I said, it kind of took me a while to think about any of it. [a while as in. like. maybe yesterday. it's fine.] And then we started talking about it and it just kinda...happened.
You're really not a bad person, Lux. I don't know why it's that surprising that people can trust you with things. [he kind of just says it without thought, but it's true. the question's a little more difficult.]
...it just did though. We've known each other for like half our lives and we've been friends for about six now. It never occurred to me to think about any of it just because timing's weird. Something's always happening back home. [...] And a few other reasons but maybe I've just been ignoring some things.
[sometimes you really just do not realize you might be interested in another dude until years later.]
Yeah. That's kind of why I don't even know if it's worth saying anything right now. If it would just make things awkward and worse while we're here it's not like it can't wait until later or whatever.
... Do you have any idea whether he feels similarly? It seems to me as if he's as fond of you as you are of him.
Which isn't to say that timing isn't still a matter for your consideration alone. But I wonder if it would really make things 'awkward' if you were both on the same page.
[ 'have you asked' and 'do you have any idea' are different questions! she knows where she stands, she's seeing if taichi does too. she trusts his assessment of his situation, jeeeez. ]
Then that does make the decision of whether or not to say something more precarious...
If what you have is such a wonderful thing already - I'm not sure I would take any risks, either.
[here's hoping it doesn't come to that...but he's stubborn.]
Cool. [there's another grin though, gratitude and a little blip of fondness bleeding through.] Are you heading back to the dorm or do you have another class?
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Ah - truly...?
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Why did it take you a while? I can't imagine that.
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...it just did though. We've known each other for like half our lives and we've been friends for about six now. It never occurred to me to think about any of it just because timing's weird. Something's always happening back home. [...] And a few other reasons but maybe I've just been ignoring some things.
[sometimes you really just do not realize you might be interested in another dude until years later.]
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Which isn't to say that timing isn't still a matter for your consideration alone. But I wonder if it would really make things 'awkward' if you were both on the same page.
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Uh. No. I've never really thought to ask or anything. We've...kind of always been like this.
[which is maybe part of the problem because sometimes your behavior isn't pointed out by any of your friends because it's accepted as normal.]
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Then that does make the decision of whether or not to say something more precarious...
If what you have is such a wonderful thing already - I'm not sure I would take any risks, either.
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As far as I figure, he's gonna be mad if I don't say anything and mad if I do, so it's just about what kind of mad I want to deal with.
[...] But we've been partners for long enough that maybe it wouldn't mess things up too badly if I did decide to ask.
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But for the record, I don't think anyone would have the right to be angry over something like that.
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...thanks. You're right, we're all getting through this, so...I'll figure it out. We're all still learning stuff, you know?
[so. one thing at a time.]
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Even if it isn't for a long time.
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I'll think about it some more as long as you think a little more on being yourself while you can. Deal?
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but lux gives a small laugh. ]
Understood.
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Cool. [there's another grin though, gratitude and a little blip of fondness bleeding through.] Are you heading back to the dorm or do you have another class?
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