Yeah...that's about right. You were in her pod. [to clarify.] The monsters were pretty tough, but probably the worst part was what happened with our memories. It just started to feel...harder, I guess, the further we went. But we weren't allowed to go back either.
[to be completely fair, that's a decent assumption to make but sometimes your baby sister outweighs your unidentified gay.]
Not really. We just fought monsters. The people in the pods always disappeared. They turned into papers. We kept losing memories or the memories were traded or they were replaced all together.
...our memories were still pretty messed up until, like, earlier today. [so yes he still thinks about things.] And I don't like that I forgot every single important person in my life and didn't even realize it wasn't real for a while.
Edited (this is a saturday thread.) 2021-07-05 05:24 (UTC)
... "Don't like" is very mild. [ Then again, Nier only knows strong emotions. He has collected enough branches, so he looks over to Taichi. ] Losing your memories is like losing pieces of yourself.
[ Sometimes you should pick too much?? Nier doesn't argue it, though. He merely smiles, though not happy about the extra memories stuck in Taichi's noggin. ]
Thank you for telling me, even though I was annoying about it.
[somehow...this feels like a trap, but he doesn't tell nier that. he's trying to get a read on the situation but he nods at the same time.]
Sure...not sure how that helps us though. [and he unfortunately means that sincerely because his focus is on what to do for the collective and not his own individual stuff.]
[it's not a trap hei please know nobody hates taichi more than i do. regardless he seems a little surprised by the question, but he answers easily enough.]
I guess that's more of a habit. I always try to make sure friends and people on my team are okay.
[it's something you do as a leader no matter what.]
[ ty your characters… Nier is legitimately wondering if he himself is this bad about people caring for him? Like does he drive people to the wall like Taichi does? There’s actually a lot of math memes happening here.
He sees why Taichi was in Spring considering who else is in it. This really is distracting him from conflicted ass trial feelings. ]
You might be picked for executioner tomorrow, so let people care for you, including me… Because I will never know when it might be your last day.
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It doesn’t always need to be useful or productive.
[it's a special talent, isn't it. all things considered there sure was a particular reason taichi was in spring that he himself kind of acknowledges, but he tilts his head when nier speaks before growing quiet.]
Yeah...all of that's true. [he can agree to that much, because the executioners are always randomized and don't really make a ton of sense. regardless...there's a moment he thinks before he actually offers something a little more straightforward.]
I'm not good at relaxing anymore. Not while all of this is going on. [even soccer is productive because it keeps him moving and doesn't give him time to think.]
Yeah, I think you mentioned that before. It's weird right? [taichi used to be much better at relaxing but then things happened and now they're here and people are dying a lot.
weirdly, or maybe understandingly, he laughs at that.]
Who knows? Maybe the trees would grow back faster. But I wouldn't say no to a better distraction if anyone could come up with one.
[boo. but also yeah, it's fine. we're all dying and dead here.]
...someone wise once told me I should just do what I want to do. [a little shrug! but...] Then again, he also compared it to eating something when he was hungry.
[no one said agumon was that smart actually.]
So maybe we should do something else that still lets us do what we want to do.
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I'm pretty sure there're people who would say either option is stupid, Nier.
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Let me worry about you. At least once.
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...but he just...frowns again.]
How much did Kainé tell you about what happened, exactly?
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Stained glass platforms, monsters, pods, memory swap, the weird assimilation memories... She was shaken up.
[ So Kainé fixated on the worst parts for her. ]
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Was Yamato in yours?
[ points except not pointing, Nier is being genuine in his ask. ]
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No. Hikari was, but by the time we got to my platform and the pod I didn't even remember she was my sister anymore.
[so. you know. that went well later.]
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... Taichi. I'm hoping you didn't have to do anything too cruel.
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Not really. We just fought monsters. The people in the pods always disappeared. They turned into papers. We kept losing memories or the memories were traded or they were replaced all together.
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Yeah, I'd definitely prefer to fight more monsters than deal with that. Do you still think about it? Or...
[ Have you repressed it so deeply. ]
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... "Don't like" is very mild. [ Then again, Nier only knows strong emotions. He has collected enough branches, so he looks over to Taichi. ] Losing your memories is like losing pieces of yourself.
Are you all put together? Nothing missing?
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Everything's put together. But those other memories are still there, too.
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Thank you for telling me, even though I was annoying about it.
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Sure...not sure how that helps us though. [and he unfortunately means that sincerely because his focus is on what to do for the collective and not his own individual stuff.]
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I don’t see how you coming to check on me helps us, either.
[ He might as well parrot. Tell him your ulterior motive, Taichi. ]
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I guess that's more of a habit. I always try to make sure friends and people on my team are okay.
[it's something you do as a leader no matter what.]
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He sees why Taichi was in Spring considering who else is in it. This really is distracting him from conflicted ass trial feelings. ]
You might be picked for executioner tomorrow, so let people care for you, including me… Because I will never know when it might be your last day.
[ … ]
It doesn’t always need to be useful or productive.
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Yeah...all of that's true. [he can agree to that much, because the executioners are always randomized and don't really make a ton of sense. regardless...there's a moment he thinks before he actually offers something a little more straightforward.]
I'm not good at relaxing anymore. Not while all of this is going on. [even soccer is productive because it keeps him moving and doesn't give him time to think.]
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I'm not used to having time to relax in the first place, so I get it.
[ Sometimes you cope by being active. The difference is that he doesn't shelve his emotions or water . ]
Maybe someone should knock us out, or we only have theories and combing through trial to keep us company. I might chop down the whole forest, too.
[ EASY ANSWER. ]
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weirdly, or maybe understandingly, he laughs at that.]
Who knows? Maybe the trees would grow back faster. But I wouldn't say no to a better distraction if anyone could come up with one.
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People sure are physically and emotionally dying a lot. Nier is one of the latter! ]
Yeah, pretty weird. Thought it was nice before, but now I'm feeling the way I do. [ ... ] You're really encouraging me to cut down the whole forest.
[ PLEASE? ]
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...someone wise once told me I should just do what I want to do. [a little shrug! but...] Then again, he also compared it to eating something when he was hungry.
[no one said agumon was that smart actually.]
So maybe we should do something else that still lets us do what we want to do.
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[ nier thinks agumon is smart enough. agumon is probably not stinky. ]
What's open right now, anyway? Maybe I'll eat like Kainé.
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Kitchen's probably still open. That sandwich place in the cafeteria's twenty-four hours a day, too.
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