...I know you're probably not gonna believe me, but I get it. It's not gonna happen overnight, but...it's something we have to keep in mind so we don't drown.
...sometimes you find that you really don't have another choice. Even when people tell you it's okay, other people might object. But it doesn't change that you believe something to be true and have to take that chance to try and see things through to save other people. Even if it's the right thing, it doesn't make it easier afterwards, I think, to deal with what happens next.
[ maya listens to this..... and puts a hand on his arm ]
(I think I understand...)
Yeah. I ... almost wish people were angry at me, you know? Everyone just.. being so kind... it makes it harder, to.... really forgive myself. You must understand that a little, too.
Sort of, yeah. You want people to protest because you know that what you did wasn't morally right, even if it was the best option at the time and it was necessary.
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Do you remember what I told you about Thursday and the monsters we fought in the Fear Factory?
I think...no matter what the circumstances, you're always going to be the last person to forgive yourself even after everybody else has. But at the same time, don't push people away because they're being kind about what happened.
...it's probably going to take a while to fix the pieces. I'm still trying to figure it out myself. But I guess...it's okay for people to know so they can help where they can.
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[ she believes him, she just wants to know more ]
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(I think I understand...)
Yeah. I ... almost wish people were angry at me, you know? Everyone just.. being so kind... it makes it harder, to.... really forgive myself. You must understand that a little, too.
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Do you remember what I told you about Thursday and the monsters we fought in the Fear Factory?
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That you had to fight... or die?
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[you were busy its ok.]
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Yeah, I remember you telling me.
[ ill face myself plays in the bg wait wrong ty character ]
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[ it's just a little overwhelming, is all ]
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[even if it's not pushing people away, let people help you the only way they know they can.]
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[ and she doesn't want to disappoint them. ]
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I feel like I'm kind of.... cracked inside. I don't know.
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Like everything suddenly doesn't really fit right anymore?
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(I had a feeling you'd get it...)
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I don't have that much time left, so I'd rather focus on helping everyone else get through this.
I'd like... to let everyone help me out, too... I just don't know that there's really anything they can do.
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...you'd be surprised. Helping doesn't always have to be reassuring. Yamato used to punch me in the face any time I got too lost in my own head.