LUX;

[goalsides]

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[goalsides]

Maybe just make sure to go to one anyway. We still don't know what happens if we do skip...and with everything else that happens here I don't know if that's a risk we should take yet anyway.

[illuminance]

Right... There were those suffering strange... Alterations to their personality. Perhaps something like that would be a punishment.

[goalsides]

Maybe...did we ever even figure out what that was about? Catra's was more subtle, but Mandricardo's was...really different.

[illuminance]

I... Have no idea. I've been trying to figure it out, but I'm afraid I'm coming up empty handed.

[goalsides]

You and me both. [which is, as usual, annoying.] But now that we know that's a thing, maybe we should be keeping an eye out for anything unusual. It might give us a lead or something.

[is he trying to be useful? you bet.]

[illuminance]

Yet another reason to be friendly with one another. It will make it easier to recognize when someone is not behaving as themselves.

[goalsides]

Yeah...if we know each other better we can pick up on things faster. [...] Should I take that to mean you've been trying to be nice to everybody still?

[illuminance]

Of course. No one here has done anything to earn my ire.

[ ..... well. except for the killers but she doesn't fucking know who they are, so. ]

[goalsides]

Except Claude?

[and the killers. but wouldn't it be hilarious if it was someone she liked a lot? wow.]

[illuminance]

I have nothing against Claude.

However, I consider myself a deeply loyal person.

[goalsides]

That makes two of us, I think.

[he...does not elaborate on that, exactly.]

But it's not a bad thing to be. Loyal. And nice to people.

[illuminance]

Sometimes loyalty is all we have.

[goalsides]

[...]

Luxanna, let me ask you something. If you were torn between two different loyalties, how would you pick between them?

[illuminance]

[ well she doesn't like that question. or maybe she just doesn't like her answer. ]

... That... Would depend on what is at stake. I will always choose the path that puts the least people in harm's way.

[goalsides]

[...there's a nod. hilariously that isn't at all applicable to why he was asking, but it's very applicable to something else he's thinking about so he goes quiet.]

...I wouldn't disagree. I was just wondering. [...] We still don't know why this is happening. So I'm wondering if maybe there is a reason that...

[that the killing is helpful. he doesn't say that out loud, and he would normally not float the question, but he does wonder a bit.]

[illuminance]

[ it's easy enough to follow the train of thought. ]

A reason that things have to happen like this? I can't wrap my head around one, but it is a possibility I've considered.

I don't know what to do differently, even with that theory on the table.

[goalsides]

I don't either. I don't know, it was just...[he huffs a little, frustrated. but he offers an apologetic smile.]

Sorry. I didn't mean to bring it up like that.

[illuminance]

Nothing to apologize for.

It's something we must be aware of as a possibility. Better not to be blindsided by something we hadn't so much as considered.

... I think that... Duty can make people do very unfortunate things.

[goalsides]

You're not wrong. [this is said firmly and certainly.] If a person feels like it's the only option, especially if it's for the greater good, they might do it and decide the consequences are worth it.

But it's like I asked somebody else. How would we then decide what deaths are or are not justified? If any.

[illuminance]

... In this hypothetical situation, we would have two options.

The first, to know all the details. To know what rules people must follow and why, and judge their actions on necessity.

Or the second. Without information - to trust one another to make the best decision available to them.

[goalsides]

It's the trusting thing that I think is going to be trouble for some people here.

[...] I had been hoping we'd find the person responsible yesterday so we could ask them more questions. But now we can't even do that.

[illuminance]

Well. Perhaps next week.

[ because there will be a next week. ]

[goalsides]

Perhaps so.

[there's another pause, and then...]

...we shouldn't let the week go to waste just waiting for that though. We'll have new classes and stuff, but there still has to be something we can do to help people out and keep everybody calm for a while.

[illuminance]

Did you have any ideas?

I have been doing my best to keep people from panicking, but there are only so many deaths they can watch before my words will ring hollow.

[goalsides]

Playing baseball seems pretty tasteless after last week. But summer dorm had a movie night last week. Really lowkey and easy and a good excuse to relax for a few hours and take our minds off of everything.