LUX;

[goalsides]

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[illuminance]

I know what I want.

But I can't say that I know how to truly accomplish it.

[goalsides]

Would other Mages at least be willing to help you?

[illuminance]

I don't know. I helped some of them flee, but wanting to live is different from wanting to...

[ to what? she doesn't have a plan, even if she had allies. and she doesn't, really, because most of the mages left with sylas. which she hates. ]

... And the others chose their side. So.

[goalsides]

...so you keep trying to find others that will join you. Even if it's a small number, it's better than doing it by yourself. There has to be a few left somewhere.

[illuminance]

Join me to do what, though?

I don't know how to change a kingdom set in thousand year old ways.

[goalsides]

You know what you want, right? Even if you don't know how yet, all it takes is trying to find someone who wants the same thing.

[illuminance]

... Even when you want the same thing, you might not agree on the best way of getting it...

[goalsides]

That's why you talk it out. [...] Yamato and I wanted the same thing even if we didn't agree on how to do it at first. But we figured it out. It's possible.

[illuminance]

Yamato is a good person and a good friend. Not everyone will be. Some people can't be reasoned with.

And it only makes it harder to do anything, because people will assume that because you share one ideal, you must hold all the same morals as them. That you are the same kind of threat.

[goalsides]

[...at this point, he's not sure what to say to that.]

Then you find a way to communicate with them and learn what their wants and morals are and how your differences can help each other. I get that maybe not everyone can, but...it's just what I think.

[illuminance]

[ that's too naive. it's so naive that she doesn't know what to do with it

so

she brightens! ]

Yes, you're probably right. It's just something I'll have to work on, I suppose!

[goalsides]

[the thing about it is, the change of heart is a little too sudden. so he looks at her for a moment before he kind of looks away instead toward the other christmas boxes and begins packing up his own stuff.]

...don't worry about it, Luxanna. I'm sure you'll do whatever you think works best and it'll turn out.

[she doesn't have to humor him, basically. so it's fine.]

[illuminance]

[ those kinds of reassuring words just kind of hurt worse! but! it's fine! she smiles and gives him a nod. ]

I appreciate the thought. Hopefully this time, that will be true.

[goalsides]

I hope so. [rip to her.] ...but thanks for telling me about everything anyway.

[if only because he maybe understands a few things now.]

[illuminance]

[ it wasn't even by choice-- ]

Of course. I'm sorry to have... Taken over the conversation.

[goalsides]

You didn't. I asked, remember?

[he could have just not questioned what he saw.]

[illuminance]

Even so.

I'm far more interested in getting to know everyone else better than I am in talking so much about myself.

[goalsides]

I am, too. I get that. But...you don't think that other people wouldn't want to get to know you, too?

[illuminance]

[ huh. ]

I suppose I never really thought about it?

[goalsides]

It might be something worth considering. That's all. Especially since we're all from different worlds.

[illuminance]

Everyone else's worlds sound much more interesting to me.

... But I understand.

[goalsides]

I think that's probably because you're so used to your own world. [a light grin.] People who aren't used to yours would probably say the same thing. When the digimon first came to earth, there was so much they didn't know and wanted to learn but it was all the mundane stuff for us. Ever since then I guess I've tried to think about what it would be like for someone else.

[illuminance]

I don't know about that. I've heard that my world is "old fashioned" so it seems like it wouldn't be so fascinating.

[goalsides]

Old fashioned isn't always a bad thing. It's not like I've heard of many kingdoms or magic or stuff like that where I'm from.

[illuminance]

But you have traveled between worlds before, right?

[ THAT SEEMS? LIKE MAGIC? ]