Oh. [he's surprised, but like pleasantly so.] Yeah. I mean it's...always gonna be weird and kind of embarrassing but maybe talking about that kind of stuff isn't so bad? It's like I told you before. Other people do want to get to know you.
[even if it's just talking about stupid things like that.]
It's been very strange, to be able to be myself so wholly, here. To be able to use magic and speak of it to anyone when that would have been forbidden back home. Even talking about crushes is... Embarrassing, yes. But something I wouldn't have been able to do before, given the circumstances.
[well that kind of backfired on him a little, please ignore the slight flustered emotions from that.]
Yeah, well...thanks. [he can at least thank her, yeah, but woof...] You are the first person I've even tried to talk to about this, so I guess that means it's true.
...yeah. Like I said, it kind of took me a while to think about any of it. [a while as in. like. maybe yesterday. it's fine.] And then we started talking about it and it just kinda...happened.
You're really not a bad person, Lux. I don't know why it's that surprising that people can trust you with things. [he kind of just says it without thought, but it's true. the question's a little more difficult.]
...it just did though. We've known each other for like half our lives and we've been friends for about six now. It never occurred to me to think about any of it just because timing's weird. Something's always happening back home. [...] And a few other reasons but maybe I've just been ignoring some things.
[sometimes you really just do not realize you might be interested in another dude until years later.]
Yeah. That's kind of why I don't even know if it's worth saying anything right now. If it would just make things awkward and worse while we're here it's not like it can't wait until later or whatever.
... Do you have any idea whether he feels similarly? It seems to me as if he's as fond of you as you are of him.
Which isn't to say that timing isn't still a matter for your consideration alone. But I wonder if it would really make things 'awkward' if you were both on the same page.
[ 'have you asked' and 'do you have any idea' are different questions! she knows where she stands, she's seeing if taichi does too. she trusts his assessment of his situation, jeeeez. ]
Then that does make the decision of whether or not to say something more precarious...
If what you have is such a wonderful thing already - I'm not sure I would take any risks, either.
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[ ... hrm, some embarrassment here because they sure did cover a lot of ground here. ]
Um... Thank you. For talking to me about all this. I don't think I've ever talked to anyone about such things before.
[ about crushes or boys or. anything like that. ]
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[even if it's just talking about stupid things like that.]
So thanks for letting me.
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It's been very strange, to be able to be myself so wholly, here. To be able to use magic and speak of it to anyone when that would have been forbidden back home. Even talking about crushes is... Embarrassing, yes. But something I wouldn't have been able to do before, given the circumstances.
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[some people might find it stressful or depressing.]
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It feels weird and I don't know if I like it.
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You can always decide later. And if you decide you don't like it, then...[a shrug. it's her choice.] But maybe it's only weird because it's so new?
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I suppose the unfamiliar can easily make one more nervous than necessary.
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Not least of all, with anything that concerns my very dear friend Yamato.
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Yeah, well...thanks. [he can at least thank her, yeah, but woof...] You are the first person I've even tried to talk to about this, so I guess that means it's true.
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Ah - truly...?
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Why did it take you a while? I can't imagine that.
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...it just did though. We've known each other for like half our lives and we've been friends for about six now. It never occurred to me to think about any of it just because timing's weird. Something's always happening back home. [...] And a few other reasons but maybe I've just been ignoring some things.
[sometimes you really just do not realize you might be interested in another dude until years later.]
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Which isn't to say that timing isn't still a matter for your consideration alone. But I wonder if it would really make things 'awkward' if you were both on the same page.
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Uh. No. I've never really thought to ask or anything. We've...kind of always been like this.
[which is maybe part of the problem because sometimes your behavior isn't pointed out by any of your friends because it's accepted as normal.]
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Then that does make the decision of whether or not to say something more precarious...
If what you have is such a wonderful thing already - I'm not sure I would take any risks, either.
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As far as I figure, he's gonna be mad if I don't say anything and mad if I do, so it's just about what kind of mad I want to deal with.
[...] But we've been partners for long enough that maybe it wouldn't mess things up too badly if I did decide to ask.
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