[we can pretend they are useful branches, who the hell is going to stop him??? also wow, he hates that question! he stares at nier and the branches for a moment before he shrugs.]
...I don't know. But there are other people who are even less okay all things considered.
It's actually exactly what it means sometimes, Nier. [he doesn't seem bothered by that though.] I've been trying to get people to focus on themselves. It's hard to do that if they're focusing on me instead.
Yeah...that's about right. You were in her pod. [to clarify.] The monsters were pretty tough, but probably the worst part was what happened with our memories. It just started to feel...harder, I guess, the further we went. But we weren't allowed to go back either.
[to be completely fair, that's a decent assumption to make but sometimes your baby sister outweighs your unidentified gay.]
Not really. We just fought monsters. The people in the pods always disappeared. They turned into papers. We kept losing memories or the memories were traded or they were replaced all together.
...our memories were still pretty messed up until, like, earlier today. [so yes he still thinks about things.] And I don't like that I forgot every single important person in my life and didn't even realize it wasn't real for a while.
Edited (this is a saturday thread.) 2021-07-05 05:24 (UTC)
... "Don't like" is very mild. [ Then again, Nier only knows strong emotions. He has collected enough branches, so he looks over to Taichi. ] Losing your memories is like losing pieces of yourself.
[ Sometimes you should pick too much?? Nier doesn't argue it, though. He merely smiles, though not happy about the extra memories stuck in Taichi's noggin. ]
Thank you for telling me, even though I was annoying about it.
[somehow...this feels like a trap, but he doesn't tell nier that. he's trying to get a read on the situation but he nods at the same time.]
Sure...not sure how that helps us though. [and he unfortunately means that sincerely because his focus is on what to do for the collective and not his own individual stuff.]
[it's not a trap hei please know nobody hates taichi more than i do. regardless he seems a little surprised by the question, but he answers easily enough.]
I guess that's more of a habit. I always try to make sure friends and people on my team are okay.
[it's something you do as a leader no matter what.]
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...I don't know. But there are other people who are even less okay all things considered.
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That doesn't mean you can't yell about it or act out a little.
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... How many people get mad at you, or frustrated with you, when you do that? I'm curious.
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[ahaha.]
I don't know if that question matters much right now.
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[ THAT TELLS HIM MORE THAN ENOUGH. They are too similar in bad ways. ]
I could use not focusing on myself. Or I might do something stupid.
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...what makes you say that?
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[ why are you making him say this aloud ]
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I'm pretty sure there're people who would say either option is stupid, Nier.
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Let me worry about you. At least once.
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...but he just...frowns again.]
How much did Kainé tell you about what happened, exactly?
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Stained glass platforms, monsters, pods, memory swap, the weird assimilation memories... She was shaken up.
[ So Kainé fixated on the worst parts for her. ]
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Was Yamato in yours?
[ points except not pointing, Nier is being genuine in his ask. ]
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No. Hikari was, but by the time we got to my platform and the pod I didn't even remember she was my sister anymore.
[so. you know. that went well later.]
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... Taichi. I'm hoping you didn't have to do anything too cruel.
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Not really. We just fought monsters. The people in the pods always disappeared. They turned into papers. We kept losing memories or the memories were traded or they were replaced all together.
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Yeah, I'd definitely prefer to fight more monsters than deal with that. Do you still think about it? Or...
[ Have you repressed it so deeply. ]
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... "Don't like" is very mild. [ Then again, Nier only knows strong emotions. He has collected enough branches, so he looks over to Taichi. ] Losing your memories is like losing pieces of yourself.
Are you all put together? Nothing missing?
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Everything's put together. But those other memories are still there, too.
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Thank you for telling me, even though I was annoying about it.
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Sure...not sure how that helps us though. [and he unfortunately means that sincerely because his focus is on what to do for the collective and not his own individual stuff.]
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I don’t see how you coming to check on me helps us, either.
[ He might as well parrot. Tell him your ulterior motive, Taichi. ]
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I guess that's more of a habit. I always try to make sure friends and people on my team are okay.
[it's something you do as a leader no matter what.]
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