NIER;

[goalsides]

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[amain]

[ They all hate that question, but it is important! It is an important question! ]

That doesn't mean you can't yell about it or act out a little.

[goalsides]

It's actually exactly what it means sometimes, Nier. [he doesn't seem bothered by that though.] I've been trying to get people to focus on themselves. It's hard to do that if they're focusing on me instead.

[amain]

[ me, hei, am ready to beat the shit out of this youngun ]

... How many people get mad at you, or frustrated with you, when you do that? I'm curious.

[goalsides]

...you mean here, or...?

[ahaha.]

I don't know if that question matters much right now.

[amain]

That tells me enough.

[ THAT TELLS HIM MORE THAN ENOUGH. They are too similar in bad ways. ]

I could use not focusing on myself. Or I might do something stupid.

[goalsides]

[sometimes! you just have to ignore your own wellbeing for the sake of others!]

...what makes you say that?

[amain]

... I tend to do that.

[ why are you making him say this aloud ]

[goalsides]

[...he just kind of closes his eyes.]

I'm pretty sure there're people who would say either option is stupid, Nier.

[amain]

[ YEAH? He sighs. ]

Let me worry about you. At least once.

[goalsides]

[NO!!!!!

...but he just...frowns again.]

How much did Kainé tell you about what happened, exactly?

[amain]

[ Yes!!!!!!!!!!! HE IS SICK AND TIRED!! OF NOT BEING ABLE TO WORRY FOR THIS DIGI!!! ]

Stained glass platforms, monsters, pods, memory swap, the weird assimilation memories... She was shaken up.

[ So Kainé fixated on the worst parts for her. ]

[goalsides]

Yeah...that's about right. You were in her pod. [to clarify.] The monsters were pretty tough, but probably the worst part was what happened with our memories. It just started to feel...harder, I guess, the further we went. But we weren't allowed to go back either.

[amain]

[ DID YOU REALLY NEED TO CLARIFY. He just frowns deeply. ]

Was Yamato in yours?

[ points except not pointing, Nier is being genuine in his ask. ]

[goalsides]

[he just raises an eyebrow gently.]

No. Hikari was, but by the time we got to my platform and the pod I didn't even remember she was my sister anymore.

[so. you know. that went well later.]

[amain]

[ What. Nier only tilts his head before nodding because that still makes sense to him. He just thought... I don't know. Gay. ]

... Taichi. I'm hoping you didn't have to do anything too cruel.

[goalsides]

[to be completely fair, that's a decent assumption to make but sometimes your baby sister outweighs your unidentified gay.]

Not really. We just fought monsters. The people in the pods always disappeared. They turned into papers. We kept losing memories or the memories were traded or they were replaced all together.

[amain]

[ Nier has to witness the digis fight over each other and their problems all the time, so it's okay. ]

Yeah, I'd definitely prefer to fight more monsters than deal with that. Do you still think about it? Or...

[ Have you repressed it so deeply. ]

[goalsides]

...our memories were still pretty messed up until, like, earlier today. [so yes he still thinks about things.] And I don't like that I forgot every single important person in my life and didn't even realize it wasn't real for a while.

[amain]

[ weekend days blend together for me ]

... "Don't like" is very mild. [ Then again, Nier only knows strong emotions. He has collected enough branches, so he looks over to Taichi. ] Losing your memories is like losing pieces of yourself.

Are you all put together? Nothing missing?

[goalsides]

Very mild is how I want to handle this because anything else feels like too much sometimes. [just...saying.]

Everything's put together. But those other memories are still there, too.

[amain]

[ Sometimes you should pick too much?? Nier doesn't argue it, though. He merely smiles, though not happy about the extra memories stuck in Taichi's noggin. ]

Thank you for telling me, even though I was annoying about it.

[goalsides]

[somehow...this feels like a trap, but he doesn't tell nier that. he's trying to get a read on the situation but he nods at the same time.]

Sure...not sure how that helps us though. [and he unfortunately means that sincerely because his focus is on what to do for the collective and not his own individual stuff.]

[amain]

[ It’s?? Not a trap? Nier does feel bad about hassling him. ]

I don’t see how you coming to check on me helps us, either.

[ He might as well parrot. Tell him your ulterior motive, Taichi. ]

[goalsides]

[it's not a trap hei please know nobody hates taichi more than i do. regardless he seems a little surprised by the question, but he answers easily enough.]

I guess that's more of a habit. I always try to make sure friends and people on my team are okay.

[it's something you do as a leader no matter what.]

[amain]

[ ty your characters… Nier is legitimately wondering if he himself is this bad about people caring for him? Like does he drive people to the wall like Taichi does? There’s actually a lot of math memes happening here.

He sees why Taichi was in Spring considering who else is in it. This really is distracting him from conflicted ass trial feelings. ]

You might be picked for executioner tomorrow, so let people care for you, including me… Because I will never know when it might be your last day.

[ … ]

It doesn’t always need to be useful or productive.