It's a hope I have, too. [which he's thinking means it won't happen which is garbage.] ...the good thing is that it's been...twenty of us now. They're going to run out of people to take to those places eventually.
[ we know players want cyoa-ers to die on the same week they go on one ]
Kainé mentioned that she started to remember a friend of ours as a student of this school when she was there. [ Spooky. ] So I worry that it may be part of... Some kind of assimilation process.
[correct. but...nier says that and taichi shrugs.]
...I remembered a teacher I had at my school back home, but I remembered him as a teacher here instead. The memory was kind of impossible, but while we were there I believed it was real.
So far, everyone who's disappeared has experienced some kind of memory alteration. That doesn't even count the kind of weird memory stuff and personality stuff that happens here to people.
[he's casual because if he starts to talk too seriously about it he might just start screaming and never stop, so!]
Considering we were brought here against our will, I'm not so sure how much control we ever had to begin with. This place wants to remind us that it can mess with our heads whenever it wants. [goodbye branches...]
It can make us think we've always meant to be here. It can take away our most important memories and replace them with a false life. It can change who we are as people. And we never know when it'll happen or why.
[we can pretend they are useful branches, who the hell is going to stop him??? also wow, he hates that question! he stares at nier and the branches for a moment before he shrugs.]
...I don't know. But there are other people who are even less okay all things considered.
It's actually exactly what it means sometimes, Nier. [he doesn't seem bothered by that though.] I've been trying to get people to focus on themselves. It's hard to do that if they're focusing on me instead.
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We can go beat up a few trees if you want? Or, like, you can and I'll come with you. I'm done fighting stuff for a while.
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[ Who just... Likes watching someone hack at a tree? ]
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Maybe I'll learn a thing or two. I got by okay enough while we were gone, but I could stand to get better.
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[ Don't think he forgot that fucking mess of running away. ]
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I'm working on it. Thursday was just...bad for a bunch of different reasons. I'm better now.
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[ He sighs before picking himself up, then dusting the snow off of his clothes. ]
This whole week is.
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No kidding. Worst of all it's not even over yet. We still have to get through tomorrow.
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[ They can go to the forest. ]
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It's a hope I have, too. [which he's thinking means it won't happen which is garbage.] ...the good thing is that it's been...twenty of us now. They're going to run out of people to take to those places eventually.
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Kainé mentioned that she started to remember a friend of ours as a student of this school when she was there. [ Spooky. ] So I worry that it may be part of... Some kind of assimilation process.
[ me: no nier ]
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...I remembered a teacher I had at my school back home, but I remembered him as a teacher here instead. The memory was kind of impossible, but while we were there I believed it was real.
So far, everyone who's disappeared has experienced some kind of memory alteration. That doesn't even count the kind of weird memory stuff and personality stuff that happens here to people.
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[ Taichi sure is so CASUAL ABOUT THIS? You go to be Sora in kingdom hearts and this is how you are. ]
This place is a nightmare. Sometimes, it feels like we have little control.
[ Watch him cut off some snowy branches with ease. He supposes he can use them for something. ]
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Considering we were brought here against our will, I'm not so sure how much control we ever had to begin with. This place wants to remind us that it can mess with our heads whenever it wants. [goodbye branches...]
It can make us think we've always meant to be here. It can take away our most important memories and replace them with a false life. It can change who we are as people. And we never know when it'll happen or why.
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... Are you really okay, Taichi?
[ look at what you're saying it's awful ]
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...I don't know. But there are other people who are even less okay all things considered.
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That doesn't mean you can't yell about it or act out a little.
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... How many people get mad at you, or frustrated with you, when you do that? I'm curious.
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[ahaha.]
I don't know if that question matters much right now.
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[ THAT TELLS HIM MORE THAN ENOUGH. They are too similar in bad ways. ]
I could use not focusing on myself. Or I might do something stupid.
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...what makes you say that?
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[ why are you making him say this aloud ]
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I'm pretty sure there're people who would say either option is stupid, Nier.
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Let me worry about you. At least once.
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...but he just...frowns again.]
How much did Kainé tell you about what happened, exactly?
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