LUX;

[goalsides]

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[illuminance]

Evolve...?

[ she's familiar with the concept, but... well, she shakes her head. ]

No. No, not at all. It's probably very natural to want your friends and companions nearby you.

[ why is that only a probably. ]

[goalsides]

[...lux??? i temporarily forgot this is meant to be memshare but we'll come back to that.]

"Probably"?

[illuminance]

[ she just smiles?



lux does not have any friends or companions. ]

[goalsides]

[. . .

WHY DOES NO ONE IN THIS FUCKING DORM HAVE FRIENDS AHHHHH.]

Luxanna...[he frowns.] Really?

[illuminance]

... I will admit that there were moments early on when I thought it might be nice to be joined by my brother or even. Someone else.

[ ...... but back to her brother! ]

He's very capable after all, and always reliably takes care of others. I believed at first that even a place like this would be no threat to him.

I'm not so sure of that any longer.

[goalsides]

This place is really starting to test us even more than usual. If Agumon and Gabumon were here, Yamato and I might be able to figure out a way to get us out. But...that's probably why we're alone.

[huh.] Why hasn't your brother joined you?

[illuminance]

[ she's about to answer, but then her memories do it for her.

because he can't see this and pretend he didn't. because of what lux is. because he chose to let her go alone. ]

[goalsides]

[oh.

first of all, wow, memory-sharing is wild and he's not sure he likes it!! but secondly he takes a moment and just...frowns.]

...oh. So that's why. [...] There really wasn't another option?

[illuminance]

[ lux just - sighs and buries her face in her hands. memory sharing really is just unavoidably going to reveal a lot about her, isn't it. ]

... I don't know. I could have...

[ ... ]

None that felt right to me.

[goalsides]

I didn't think being a mage was a bad thing. [what the hell is going on here.]

[illuminance]

Magic is evil, where I'm from. The kingdom was founded on that belief.

[goalsides]

What kind of kingdom of light says that magic's evil?

Why?

[illuminance]

Magic is truly dangerous. The kingdom was founded by our ancestors fleeing from the havoc of a magic war. And magic has done irreparable damage to the entire world around us.

... It isn't for no reason.

Even my magic can ruin things.

[goalsides]

Yeah, but...that doesn't mean it can't be used for good either. Shouldn't it be based on what a person does with it? Not just an overall thing?

[illuminance]

... I want to think so.

But it might be too late.

[goalsides]

Might isn't the same thing as for sure, Luxanna. If there's still a chance to change how things are seen in the future, then...I just think...maybe it's worth trying.

[illuminance]

That's easier said than done. How do you convince a kingdom that a thousand years of history is wrong?

How do you do that when a mage just killed their king in the name of such beliefs?

[goalsides]

[well. he opens his mouth to answer that, but instead lux gets to see something else.]

[illuminance]

[ unfortunately lux's first thought is just: it must be nice to have so many people on your side.

and that it feels strange to see a memory with someone else she knows, too. ]

... What were you hesitating for?

[goalsides]

[ah. hm. you know this really does nothing to actually prove the point he was trying to make, but it's fine. things were different.]

...it wasn't as simple as Yamato made it out to be. But I couldn't explain it to him back then. I couldn't explain it to any of them at all.

[illuminance]

[ it looked like a pretty recent memory, but... ]

How long ago was it? Were you able to explain it properly, in the end...?

[goalsides]

A few months ago. [so she's right, it was recent.] ...I don't know if I ever explained the way I needed to, but it was explained enough to be understood. It didn't matter though. Our friends were still not to blame for what was happening.

[and back to here.] People just have to know it wasn't their fault.

[illuminance]

... I don't understand. You had people you could tell, but you still didn't explain the way you needed to...?

[ lux has always imagined that having friends would mean not having to keep so much to yourself. ]

[goalsides]

[...urgggh.]

It's more like...I didn't even really know how to explain it to myself back then. Things changed.

[illuminance]

I see...

[ she doesn't really seem to get it. ]