LUX;

[goalsides]

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Week 3: Monday

[illuminance]

[ lux is in the common room, marveling at her little christmas gift when she spots taichi. she gives him a smile - and holds it up for him to see. looks like a little badge or emblem of some kind? neat. ]

What did you get?

[goalsides]

[he squints a little at the badge, a slight grin following because it's shiny even if he doesn't get what it is.]

Nothing like that. But check it out. [he will pick up and hand her a photo.]

[illuminance]

[ it looks like it has some kind of bird? wing? symbol on it. she's happy, anyway. ]

A portrait! [ and she does, of course, quietly 'aww' over little taichi and yamato. then: ] There are quite a lot of... Unfamiliar creatures in this.

[goalsides]

Yeah. We wanted to take a group picture before we left. [he wants to ask about the badge. but suddenly he's distracted by the way he grins fondly at said-photo.]

Those are the digimon. Our partners. [and he will point at the one next to yamato and the one next to himself.] Those are mine and Yamato's. Gabumon and Agumon.

[illuminance]

[ she's heard a little bit about digimon, but... not enough to have been prepared for this photo, honestly. ]

I didn't realize how... Diverse they could be! It's a shame I can't meet them in person. Though, in a way, lucky that they aren't here.

[goalsides]

[it gets him to laugh.]

Yeah, well...there's all kinds. This is just their child form. When they evolve they look even more bizarre. [but...ah.]

It's safer that they aren't here, but I still kind of wish they were. Is that selfish?

[illuminance]

Evolve...?

[ she's familiar with the concept, but... well, she shakes her head. ]

No. No, not at all. It's probably very natural to want your friends and companions nearby you.

[ why is that only a probably. ]

[goalsides]

[...lux??? i temporarily forgot this is meant to be memshare but we'll come back to that.]

"Probably"?

[illuminance]

[ she just smiles?



lux does not have any friends or companions. ]

[goalsides]

[. . .

WHY DOES NO ONE IN THIS FUCKING DORM HAVE FRIENDS AHHHHH.]

Luxanna...[he frowns.] Really?

[illuminance]

... I will admit that there were moments early on when I thought it might be nice to be joined by my brother or even. Someone else.

[ ...... but back to her brother! ]

He's very capable after all, and always reliably takes care of others. I believed at first that even a place like this would be no threat to him.

I'm not so sure of that any longer.

[goalsides]

This place is really starting to test us even more than usual. If Agumon and Gabumon were here, Yamato and I might be able to figure out a way to get us out. But...that's probably why we're alone.

[huh.] Why hasn't your brother joined you?

[illuminance]

[ she's about to answer, but then her memories do it for her.

because he can't see this and pretend he didn't. because of what lux is. because he chose to let her go alone. ]

[goalsides]

[oh.

first of all, wow, memory-sharing is wild and he's not sure he likes it!! but secondly he takes a moment and just...frowns.]

...oh. So that's why. [...] There really wasn't another option?

[illuminance]

[ lux just - sighs and buries her face in her hands. memory sharing really is just unavoidably going to reveal a lot about her, isn't it. ]

... I don't know. I could have...

[ ... ]

None that felt right to me.

[goalsides]

I didn't think being a mage was a bad thing. [what the hell is going on here.]

[illuminance]

Magic is evil, where I'm from. The kingdom was founded on that belief.

[goalsides]

What kind of kingdom of light says that magic's evil?

Why?

[illuminance]

Magic is truly dangerous. The kingdom was founded by our ancestors fleeing from the havoc of a magic war. And magic has done irreparable damage to the entire world around us.

... It isn't for no reason.

Even my magic can ruin things.

[goalsides]

Yeah, but...that doesn't mean it can't be used for good either. Shouldn't it be based on what a person does with it? Not just an overall thing?

[illuminance]

... I want to think so.

But it might be too late.

[goalsides]

Might isn't the same thing as for sure, Luxanna. If there's still a chance to change how things are seen in the future, then...I just think...maybe it's worth trying.

[illuminance]

That's easier said than done. How do you convince a kingdom that a thousand years of history is wrong?

How do you do that when a mage just killed their king in the name of such beliefs?

[goalsides]

[well. he opens his mouth to answer that, but instead lux gets to see something else.]

[illuminance]

[ unfortunately lux's first thought is just: it must be nice to have so many people on your side.

and that it feels strange to see a memory with someone else she knows, too. ]

... What were you hesitating for?